I made a mistake

I’ll be the first to admit it: I made a mistake, or a series of mistakes. We have so much to talk about, I don’t even know where to begin. 

There’s several reasons, mostly excuses, why this blog was deactivated. Ultimately, I made a choice that my passions were no longer worth pursuing. What a silly little decision I made that only ended up hurting myself in the long run. I have tears in my eyes looking at this site and all the hard work I put into it, wondering why I ever gave up on myself.

As I read through my posts and reflect on how far I’ve come, I can’t help but laugh at the irony of my last post. I spoke about my depression relapsing when I went off my medication previously, and then proceeded to go off my medication again. Spoiler alert: the depression relapsed again. I fought for years to find a medication that worked for me and suddenly, I thought I was healed and didn’t need it anymore. That’s not real life. I’m not going to make that mistake again. Medication can be life saving and is not a sign of weakness. Never take mental health advice from someone who has never been to therapy. I’ve spent too much time and energy to get to this point to forget everything I’ve learned along the way. Again, I gave up on myself.

I truly believe that you are who you surround yourself with. The more I surround myself with authentic and artistic people, the more inspired and creative I feel. So, thank you to the people that have shown up for me to remind myself who I am. Especially thank you to my parents for showing up for me in ways that have far exceeded my expectations. 

So I’m back, in my little corner of the internet where I get to make noise and scream into the void. Where I hope vulnerability leads to connection, struggle turns into inspiration, and I can invest in my passions. It’s that feeling when you open an old playlist and find a bunch of songs that you forgot you loved. I have missed writing so much. It makes me feel so human.

Life is about showing up. It’s so easy to get caught up in showing up for others that you lose yourself along the way. It’s time that I practice showing up for myself, with no expectations other than authenticity.

Stoked to be back. So many good things in store.

Can't wait to catch up more,

Ken and Whisk