The Rehab Diaries pt 2

Day 6

Everyone had someone drop them off so every doctor asks me who dropped me off. It’s uncomfortable when I tell them no one. When I take Whiskey outside, I can see that my car is the only one in the parking lot besides the staff. I did meditation yoga and my body felt so good. Goals for tomorrow: first day off detox: stretch and do mindfulness. Since I’m off detox, I have group 3 times a day, and potentially required AA, no one really knows.

Day 7

I had a private yoga session and it was GLORIOUS. We did shoulder stretches and my private session was hamstrings. I went to do candle stick and farted twice HA. I feel so good and relaxed and so much more aware of the tension in my body. I’m off detox today. I’m feeling socially drained and just wish I could spend the day by myself but we have group all day that I am now required to go to.

Day 8

Now I have been going to groups. I am grateful for friends who love card games as much as I do. I need a me day. Just asked Whiskey what movie we should watch. I’m settled in and in a routine and feeling good so far.

A couple of these pages are missing or torn.

I think I’m in the mood to isolate today. Everyone’s least favorite therapist is leading group. She has the most annoying voice. No temptations for drinking, although I do think maybe once a day that whatever I’m doing would be more fun drunk.

Day 12

This was a hard day. I don’t want to go into it for the sake of privacy and respect. It was not uncommon for people to be discharged and return shortly after. Not to mention everyone was coupled up. I spent most of the day making a beanie for one of my friends in rehab.

Day 13

Whiskey is group therapy dog. I woke up earlier today and did some yoga stretches and I feel phenomenal. I also made myself tea last night and realized I like making tea but never drink it. Apparently HR is aware that chef has not accommodated my vegan diet or taken allergies seriously. They said they don’t care if it goes against his french cuisine, he needs to accommodate our diets.

I have a new roomie and I’m obsessed. She loves all the good horror movies and was gonna tell me about this good home invasion movie and I immediately knew it was my favorite- Funny Games.

Day 14

Today was hard. And sad. I woke up feeling good and did meditation (which always ends up being nap time) but my heavy breathing was drowned out by someone else’s snoring. Lunch was very vegan friendly but I couldn’t eat dinner. I had a nice lay down in the grass outside and talked to one of the technicians until they got pushy and I started crying. Long, sad nap and cry in the dark. My roomie felt like she needed to come back to the room for a while and she sat with me for a bit. Then she snuggled with Whiskey while watching a movie. I miss home. I miss friends.

There was some more drama and ambulances.

Day 15

My dogs's birthdays are today. I wish I could get them flowers to celebrate. There needs to be a news channel for updates about everyone’s drama. (Don’t date in rehab, it never works out and no, you’re not the exception). AA is supposed to start soon and blow up with drama. Everyone just waits around to watch it because there is nothing else to do.

Can’t decide between crocheting, sudoku, or eating dinner. Rehab is just Love Island or the Bachelor but for mentally ill people. We watched the Good Place and Eurovision and it was terrible. One of my friends is going to come visit me on Saturday which is going to be fun! It’s very kind that he wanted to.

Day 16

Officially 2 weeks sober! One of our friends leaves today. The vibes have been off since. We had a game night. I facetimed some friends today. Any time we’re waiting for group, someone puts on Adam Sandler and I am so sick of it. Facetimed two of my friends today, and it really helped me feel better.

Day 737

I have had the privilege of celebrating so many more sober milestones. Both mine and my friends. One week, one month, one year, 11 years. My sober community continues to grow and I continue to learn tools to maintain my sobriety. The funny thing about it is that once you start looking for sober people, you find them in the most unlikely places.

from my heart,

ken and whisk